So I was hanging out with some friends the other night playing a rousing game of Truth or Dare. I know that it sounds pretty immature for college students and graduates to be playing such a juvenile game, but it was. However, after leaving the friend's house on whom we imposed until two in the morning, I had the thought of what other people our age were doing at that time as well. I even began to think about what I would have been doing had we not all had something in common--Our Faith and honestly even our University. Many kids would be playing beer pong or doing shots, us instead we chose to get to know each other in a fun and very obtrusive way with coffee or sodas in hand.
Honestly, I have been struggling lately with wanting to rebel, but then knowing that I would feel guilty if I did and wondering where that comes from. I know that I am saved and that I have the Holy Spirit in me, but I also struggle with human desires. I am also a woman. While many would laugh at the idea of me worrying about marriage and such I find it to be a reality in my life of something I desire. I know though, that Christ is really the fulfillment I am looking for and I don't obey or listen or have the patience that I should so in my mind I am not fulfilled and am looking for more. But what more is there than the Creator of our universe. What more is there than the man who died and paid for my sins. What more is there than someone who although we constantly spit in His faith wants a relationship with us. What I have learned is that if I think there is more it is because I am not allowing myself to understand what all my God has to offer. He alone is who fulfills me, but I have to let Him...
just a thought....stay tuned...
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