Prayer for 2010

So I have not always been known to stand up for myself. This is something that I am learning how to balance. I also tend to get stressed out when plans fall through. Today some things fell through and lately I have found out about some not cool stuff that has been happening in my family. Well, in my stress I brought up the issue that has been causing a rift with my father and step mother. Well my step mother took it out of context and apparently portrayed the situation in a different light to her daughter. Now the daughter's boyfriend is upset because he may have to learn to be slightly responsible. I don't want to slander these people at all so this is where I will stop with my discussion of them. I just get very frustrated when I come home and so much stuff happens. Anyways, I will be back in the place I truly love. I don't want to run away from problems and in situations like this I feel like there is so much more I could do to share Christ with these people (they are not believers) but because of my human shortcomings I fail. I hate this so much. I really just want to bring God all glory honor and praise, but I am constantly failing. I hate this. I know that I said that before, but as someone who wants to spend their life pouring into the lives of others I know there are some things that I need to work on and the balance of voicing my opinions and being considerate of others is a major thing that I need to work on. This is my prayer for 2010, that the Lord will grant me the wisdom and strength to hold my tongue like it talks about in James 3 the tongue can be the hardest thing to tame and while it is so little it controls so much. This is one thing that I need to be working on this year and in years to come, but I know it will not come apart from lots of prayers. I want to have callouses on my knees. These are my thoughts for the night thanks for letting me have this deep emo blog...hopefully there won't be many more so emo...stay tuned...